big bro years ago!
my brother.
he is seven years older
and when i was young
he was a giant
in every since of the word.
our relationship was typical.
he was big, strong, and owned
the world as far as i could discern.
i was the target of his
need to wield power.
"i'll count to three...
if you don't get me a drink of water
you will regret it."
most of the time he got his water.
other times i refused to be
bossed and suffered the
consequences.
but...
as has been said
time changes things.
time changed my brother.
time changed me.
the gift of time
for both of us came with
bumps and bruises.
the gift of time
for both of us came with
loss and new life.
my brother is a recovering alcoholic.
recovering is the key word
for it points to the new life he discovered
after coming to terms with life....
coming to terms with life has to do
with coming to terms with power...
the power we have and do not have.
coming to terms with life
my brother says
has to do with finally trusting
GOD'S unconditional love.
my brother saved me one night...
the darkest night of my life.
i was in the darkest part of the
proverbial closet
before i had what i needed
to open the door and come
OUT of denial.
though i had verbally told
people in my life
that i was gay...
and had already experienced radical
changes in my life...
i did not come to terms with
the full news myself
until that darkest moment.
in that moment my brother
offered me the gift of unconditional love.
he offered me words
not only of comfort
but of strength
when i needed them most.
he did for me what he does for
countless others now
who seek new life and
recovery.
time has a way
of changing things...
of changing lives.
time has changed me
opened me
allowed me
to see not only the bigger picture of my life
but the bigger picture of
other peoples lives.
my brother has a gift
and one night
he offered me
his gift.
he saved my life.
i'm not sure he knows.
he will know now.
my brother has a gift....
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