it's as if i've been training
for the olympics
a little more than five years
of living after
two life events
altering almost every aspect
of my life
or so it seemed
1. divorce
from a woman
who will forever remain
a "soul-mate"
who i respect
and am thankful
she has shared half
of my life journey
and also lived the miracle
of two children
who continue to bless us both.
2. coming out
to the truth of my life
that i was born
gay
a homosexual or what ever
term you wish to use
because i claim them all now.
in this period of life
i've served three churches
in three different states
was fired but not fired from one
only to discover deep wisdom through the process
which led me to the precious church i currently serve
as they live into the same kind of monumental change
i've experienced
in this period of life
i wrestled with every fiber of my being
to complete a doctor of ministry degree
and along the way discovered
the village of loving folks
who supported me in ways
i will be writing about for years to come
in this period of life
i've learned to live on my own
far away from the land
where i was born and lived most of my life
and
i've listened to blunt honesty
others have had a need to voice
and
trusted the guiding words of a life coach
who continues to enrich my life
with insight and encouragement
some days have moved so slowly
i've almost suffocated before making it to the next breath
other
days
sped by so quickly i forgot i was breathing
in this period of life
i've searched for new relationship
opening my heart with expectation
while having to hone the honest truth
of what i need and long to have
in a relationship i hope to
share for years to come
in this period of life
i've written and spoken oceans of words
bumping into the reality
that others had to encounter my words
discovering some have been hurt
while others inspired
so as i
live into the next season
i begin with apology
to those my honesty has hurt
i also offer thanks
to those my honesty has inspired
knowing
the power words
hold
i pray
GOD
fill me with wisdom and compassion
and joy and memory
as i
figure out
what to do with the words
that fill me to overflowing
for so many years i held many words in
for these past few years
they've been spilling out
but i'm in
a new place
having discovered
i've been called
to be a storyteller
of sorts
and in need
of discerning
how best to share
the stories
i've been given.
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