i pushed send

photo by blake spencer 

mistake

maybe

maybe 

            not

i wrote words

and pushed 

the send key

before 

i should 

have

typed words

and sent 

them

they weren't

reprehensible

the words 

i typed and sent

they 

were

well

honest

even 

still

i woke 

up the next day 

and 

that 

feeling 

welled up 

the feeling 

when you know 

you've been more

vulnerable 

than you had 

intended

the vulnerability

i suppose 

is the stinger

it is in this 

case 

because 

thankfully 

my honesty 

did not involve 

any word

i regret speaking

really

as i think

about it now

i am glad

i typed 

and sent

because

now

it feels that i've

finally let go

of something 

i needed to let go

of

it seems

a heavy dose of 

humility

with a serving of 

embarrassment

got me

to a place

i needed 

to get

go 

figure

vulnerability

and 

humility 

win 

the day 

yet again

i will 

for a long while

pause

before i

send words 

i just typed

i 

just 

did.