to uncover joy
once more in life
suggests that
the joy
for a time
was
hidden
lost
kidnapped
is that
how it happens?
joy can get
hidden
lost
kidnapped?
perception
is required
to answer this one
if the joy was lost,
then how was i
so careless to lose it?
if the joy was hidden,
then who is behind the hiding
and was it all for a cruel joke?
if the joy was kidnapped
then why did i not fight back with
v e n g e a n c e
as i know i would have
if someone had taken
one of my children?
now.....
perspective
with some pondering:
if joy is lost
misplaced or stolen
then what is required...
what must take place
in order for joy
to become a reality
once
more?
not sure i have
the entire answer
only the things i have experienced
on this journey of
lost
and found
joy.
first step to recovery of joy:
tears
oh the tears
relentless
tears
and with the tears
non stop images
like an old carousal slide show
flashing in my mind
faces
words
g o s s i p
second step:
understanding
tears are a source
for healing
it doesn't feel like it
at the time
but
the tears slowly
wash away
past pain
and after the tears
anger
at oneself
at others
after the anger
honest evaluation:
reflection on personal
weaknesses and strengths
after reflection
acceptance:
as to what was
and what is
after acceptance
readiness to step into
a new story
with these steps
into the new comes:
vulnerability
to risk sharing
yourself again
and with risk of sharing
life
o p e n s
and openness
leads
to
j o y
and with new found joy
comes the knowledge
that this process may well
repeat all over again
but even if
and when it repeats
i now live
with this hope:
joy may get hidden
lost, or hi-jacked
b u t...
joy will come
back again
in time
joy
comes
back
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