Wednesday, December 5, 2012




she sent these words
as we shared our greetings...

"being on the fringe of the church is tough, 
but I have to believe that that's where a lot of the 
exciting things are happening, 
as difficult as they might be."

hmmm...
i spent most of my life
tucked safely
in the middle
the vanilla
typical
not too much of this
not too much of that
moderate
middle
not noticed for 
anything 
controversial

however
coming out of denial
peals away all those 
safe layers of the middle
and now
my very breathing existence 
puts me in the 
fringe of the church

fringe...
that's an interesting description

oh,
i understand what my friend was saying
with her words
she was offering affirmation and support

but i'm left 
to ponder 
"fringe" 
as a way of life

fringe...

1. decorative edging of strands: a decorative border of short parallel strands or raveled threads held closely together at one end by stitching and hanging loosely at the other end
 
2 .any border or edging: something that serves as or resembles a border "a fringe of reeds circling the pond"
 
3. outer limit: the outer edge, or something considered to be on the outer edge and not central to an activity, interest, or issue
 
no longer in the middle
i am now 
the decorative edging!
 
that works for me
 
or
i am the border 
the edge 
providing 
a frame 
around all the other.
 
that works for me
 
or
i am the outer limit
no longer the central interest 
or issue
 
oh how i wish this were 
the reality
 
for to 
no longer be the central interest or issue
would mean that the church
the culture 
would have come to terms with 
their 
fear and prejudice
and 
lgbtq
men and women 
would have the space
and respect to 
live
love
serve
and marry
 
-------------
 
at the core of my being
in the middle of my soul
i know GOD'S love
and calling
and with this
assurance 
i am confident 
that to be the fringe of the church
and society 
is a gift
 
from 
the perspective of the 
outer limit
the edge
GOD'S love is 
abundantly evident
and real!
 
so 
as i see it
the church 
would be 
awfully 
dull and 
duller
without 
the 
"fringe" 
 
and 
as i know
it...
GOD'S love
is anything but
dull and duller!
 
 

1 comment:

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