christmas eve call

photo by blake spencer

a text 

and a call

pre -

christmas eve worship

conversations.

partly angst

that we're not yet 

in the company of the ones we love

and for two...

the one who texted,

the one who called,

they expressed their sadness

that the holiday is not

the way 

they desire.

it is easy to forget

that for some

holidays are 

harsh reminders

of what was 

and what is not.

some call it 

a blue

christmas.

and for some reason

each and every season

i spend time 

before these 

worship services 
on christmas eve

feeling blue.

so with these blues

i wait

thinking of those

i love....

thinking of those

i don't even know.

not because i'm some martyr

not because i'm some saint

but just because 

there is a piece of

loneliness in each 

one of us

and we all seek 

room...
we all seek home...

we all seek 

something more. 

peace...

peace on earth

and peace in heart.

peace....

peace be ours

this night.