some times.....time gets away

I spent a great deal of time reconnecting with some folks.....which had required listening and offering apologies for past behavior. Seems I was not as wise as I thought all those years ago.....25 years to be exact.

I made assumptions, and judged myself to be more "evolved". How wrong I was. I find out all these years later just how much I could not see and hear then.

It does seem I picked my friends well. They have offered me large doses of grace. I will be forever thankful.

There are just some things that are not worth living with any longer. I remembered with one friend a moment when I was standing on the driveway of the home I grew up in. In that very spot I remember learning how to ride my bike. I also remember Tommy Crosby chasing me from the bus stop yelling horrible things at me for the whole neighborhood to hear. But like I said some things are worth holding on too. The cruelness Tommy Crosby spewed is one of those things.

Finally I am able to stand on my own two feet and respond, "I will not make that mistake again!" I will no longer live in fear, anger, regret....

So this week I had courage to begin again.