When I was first called into the ministry....honestly it was about other people. God was going to help me help other people. I was going to go to school to learn how to help people deal with their dysfunction and to change their lives for the better. I've been able to do this somewhat. I have been in the right place at the right time and said the right thing at the right time and people have been helped.
But really this whole "called by God thing" has to do more about me than anyone else. What I mean to say is that through the years God has been busy pealing away the layers of my life, forcing me to deal with my own dysfunction, my own hang ups and fear and anger. Sometimes the layers of my life peal away with very little notice. Other times God peals off a layer and I am left crying.
Layer by layer God peals away and each time I become more mature. Each time I learn a little bit more about why I am the way I am.
This isn't why I entered the ministry in the first place.....however as frightening as it can be at times it still remains worth it.
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